muse of my soul

dejected
unvalued
ignored
the one who’s different
from us we label as
weird
the one we are indignant
towards, we lower him to
sub-human
rejected
devalued
abhored
and yet we say we are
His hands and feet
as close as someone
may see of Jesus
are we so selfish
that we become unwilling
to live up to
our calling as
children of God?
and we wonder why
people hate us
when they see the love
we preach lived out […]

I want to be known
by others yet
remain a mystery
I admire the simple
yet I dwell
in complexity
I crave attention
though deep within
I want to be alone
I desire to be loved
at the same time
to not need love
30 May 2007

the freedom that comes
from being aloof
comes as tactics of
evasion from precarious
situations
as a network of holes
and underground tunnels
assist the prairie dogs’
escape from dire
confrontations.
though naturally aloof
times come when awareness
steps in, where with finesse
pretentious detachment
wins out
yet it is the curse that comes
with being aloof
that harvests shallow
friendships, that conjures
self-doubt.
29 May 2007

alienated
estranged
home
but not home
it was what he felt
what she felt
what they felt
it is what I feel
and not feel
home
but not home
a stranger
yet not one
lost
28 May 2007

I grieve for this world,
saddened
by the cruelty of humanity
and moreso even
the inhumanity.
27 May 2007

can friendships
be
forever
or
do they end
abruptly
prematurely
until
mangled and rotting
pieces
pull apart from the
strain
or perhaps
the better question:
what
is
friendship?
26 May 2007

head against the pillow
sleep comes
to swallow me up in dreams
only to find
that dreams dissipate
as morning dawns
as fleeting as my slumber.
25 May 2007